Confused, sorrowful, ashamed, shaken, and angry.

I run to nowhere, anywhere...everywhere.

I hate that sorrow and sadness...
I need to feel emotions again.
I feel trapped.
I stop just long enough to see the forest of
darkness coming near me.
I run to the forest
glad to see it coming towards me.
When I awake I see nothing but darkness.
The only thing I hear is the soft but
sure beating of my heart.
I feel cold all over,
the pain is still there.
A cloud of sounds come
over me then nothing.
But the assurance of the still beating
of my heart is still there,
the only thing that lets me know I’m still alive.